Sunday, August 21, 2016

Plants and Stones



Plants and Stones
By: Joy Ortiz
            My yard is nothing to brag about.  When it comes to gardening, I have lots of good ideas and intentions yet very limited know-how.  The result is usually unruly beds full of the hardiest plants and a good mix of weeds.  Every once in a while inspiration strikes me, I buy a bunch of seeds and small plants, and I try to make something intentional happen.  During one of these gardening fits I bought a packet of hosta roots and planted them around the tree in the center of the yard.  Hostas are a pretty hardy, leafy plant, so I was confident that I wouldn’t kill them anytime soon.  Sure enough, with spring warmth and rain the hostas began to send up green shoots which unfolded into beautiful striped leaves.  Success!  At least, until I put my tortoise in the yard.
            I don’t know if you know this about me, but I have a fifty pound sulcata tortoise as a pet.  I would love to tell you all about him later, but stay with me.  Here’s what you need to know right now: he eats anything that is green.  During the winter he lives in a pen in my basement, so he was still in his winter home when I purchased my hosta roots and planted them.  When I planned my garden, I forgot about Chewy.  You see, once the weather gets above sixty degrees in the spring, we start bringing Chewy outside to eat fresh grass.  Along with the grass he eats dandelions, violets, mulberry leaves, and…hostas.  He munched them down to little nubs.  I thought they were dead.
            Here’s the funny thing though: those hosta roots are still alive.  Every spring they send up shoots, and every spring Chewy mows them down again.  I keep wondering, “Will they come back again this year, or are they finally dead?”  Every time I see the curly green peeking up out of the mulch I think, “I really need to get some stones and build a wall around this flower bed.  Then these hostas can finally grow.”
            Church, some of us are like those hostas.  Our faith is an old root in the ground.  Something used to grow from it, but every time we started to flourish, life came and mowed us down.  So we sit quietly in the dark where it’s safe.  We don’t reach out anymore because we have learned our lesson.  When you reach out, you just get hurt.  Our faith is still alive with potential, yet it’s impossible for us to grow and flourish when life is just so hard.
            Others of us are like stones.  Our faith is solid and steadfast.  We stand firm no matter the season or weather.  We know who we are in Christ and are unmoved by life’s circumstances.  Do you know how we got that way?  Did you know we used to be plants, too, when our faith was young?  Did you know that a plant can become a stone?
            Sometimes a plant such as a tree experiences natural disaster.  Storms and floods can bring a river of muddy sediment sweeping through a forest, and trees become buried alive.  Encased in the mud, they die from lack of light and air, but they cannot decompose since the environment is sealed off.  Eventually groundwater seeps through the layers of sediment and carries various minerals with it which slowly replace the organic cells of the tree.  When the process is complete, the entire structure of the tree is transformed from a plant to stone.  This stone is strong, heavy, and hard.  Sometimes loggers mistake it for a living tree and try to cut it with chainsaws, which wrecks the blades.  The details of the tree, the bark, wood grain, and rings remain virtually intact, so the tree still looks like a tree, but it’s a stone. 
            Maybe your spirit was crushed by a disaster.  Maybe your faith suffocated and died in the dark.  Maybe you felt alone, cut off from the life you used to live, and you wondered if you would ever see the light again.  Maybe you knew that things could never, ever go back to the way they used to be.  I have good news for you: Christ comes to make us new.  He runs through us like living water, penetrating every cell of our beings.  Bit by bit, he washes away our old selves and replaces us with a new substance.  He makes us like himself: steadfast and strong in faith.  Sure, we might look like our old selves on the outside, but we are not the same.  He makes us eternal.
            If you are a stone, then you understand this.  You have been there.  You remember the pain of the disaster, the loneliness and despair of the dark, the slow, redeeming life that seeped back into you, and the wonder you felt when you realized you could no longer die.  You know what it’s like to stand firm in the face of adversity.  You have learned to rest in the presence of Christ in you.
            If you are a plant, then you know that your faith may grow in seasons, sometimes flourishing and bearing fruit or flowers, sometimes lying dormant in winter only to rise again in the spring.  You have experienced the spirit of God stirring within you, sending out green shoots that look like love, joy, worship, peace, service, goodness, and prayer.  Maybe you have served in church ministry or led a small group.  Maybe you are brand new and just started waking up and growing in God.  Plants come in all different shapes and sizes.  Some grow quickly or slowly.  Some are showy, and some are simple.  No matter which kind of plant you are, faith lies within you, and you have the potential for growth.  But with that potential comes vulnerability.  You can be hurt, cut down by others.  You can be picked over and stripped bare of your fruit, left feeling used.  You can suffer changes in the weather, and you can get beaten down by life’s storms.  In fact, if things get bad enough, your faith might even die.
            Here’s the good news: our faith does not have to depend on circumstances.  The different seasons of life come and go.  Our faith does not have to come and go with them.  Christ came to teach us a hard truth: we must die if we want to be alive.  In Matthew 16:24-26 NLT Jesus tells his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me.  If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it.  But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.  And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?  Is anything worth more than your soul?”  We must be willing to die to our old selves in order for Christ to make us eternal.
When Jesus asked Peter, “But who do you say I am?” and Peter replied, “You are the Messiah, the Son of the Living God,” then Jesus told him, “You are blessed, Son of John, because my Father in heaven has revealed this to you.  You did not learn this from any human being.  Now I say to you that you are Peter (which means ‘rock’), and upon this rock I will build my church, and all the powers of hell will not conquer it.” (Matthew 16: 15-18) When we declare Jesus is our Messiah not just because we learned it from a human being, but believing because we have been tested by adversity and made new by the restorative spirit of God, then we become rocks, and Christ uses us to build his church.
            Church, we who are rocks need to surround our plants and create a safe place for them to grow.  One of the ways we do this is through prayer.  If you know someone whose faith is struggling to grow, please pray for them today.  You can also pray for opportunities to offer words of encouragement or verses of scripture.  Make time for these people in your lives.  There are so many who accept Christ and carry the spirit of God within them yet are struggling to grow.  It is the responsibility of the church to stand firm in Christ and provide a safe place for people to seek him and grow in him.
Plants, we need to keep growing and reaching out, even when we are afraid of being cut down again.  Pray for courage to face the pain of connecting with others.  Pray for opportunities to share your gifts with others. If you are in a season of growth, God bless you.  You make our garden beautiful.  If you are lying dormant, just wait.  Spring will come again.  Pray that the Spirit of God will stir within you and wake you up.  And if any of you is in that dark, dead, lonely place: hold on.  You are being transformed.  Someday Christ’s work in you will be complete, and you will become a stone upon which he will build his church.  Pray and declare him to be the Messiah, the Son of God, not because a person taught you to say that, but because you feel the weight of its truth in every cell of your being, changing you and making you new.


Sunday, August 14, 2016

On Becoming Stone

On Becoming Stone
By: Joy Ortiz

I was a tree
Young and green
Before the rivers rose
Around me. 
Churning, sweeping
The current came
Sudden and strong. 
My brothers tumbled,
Shallow roots torn,
And washed away. 
I held fast
Straining to survive
Upright. 

Birthed by rain
Thick mud
Heaved 
Dragging me downward. 
Desperate, I reached
Toward hidden sun,
Yet touched nothing. 
Deeper and deeper
The earth rose,
A grave. 

Where was I?
Buried and lost. 
Couldn't breathe. 
All was darkness. 
Had I fallen?
Somewhere else
(Above? Below?)
A distant boom
Showered...
What?
Another layer. 
Alone, 
I died. 

Alone I stayed. 
No beetles came
Devouring. 
No worms
Bored holes. 
Even microbes
Abandoned me
In my perfect tomb
Of mud and ash. 
Untouched I stood. 
Waiting?
Is death only waiting?

Then water seeped,
Permeating mud,
Passing through 
My every pore,
Bringing gifts:
Quartz, silica, agate.
Rich treasures
Like funeral offerings
Replaced my flesh
With crystalline beauty. 
Ever so slowly
I transformed
Until every cell
Became 
Stone. 

Ages passed. 
What is time?
The world heaved,
Broke its shell.
Then came rain
Slowly, 
Slowly eroding. 
Layers dissolved
And left me standing
Like a tree, 
But changed. 

Bands of color
Rippled through me. 
Sparkling facets 
Caught the light. 
I stood strong,
Unbreakable,
A stone
With bark and 
Rings of growth,
Immortal
In the light and air. 
Then I knew:
Death
And salvation
Were the same. 

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Palette

Palette 
By: Joy Ortiz

Do colors resist blending,
Yellow screaming,
"Not a drop, Red!"
Despising the orange
Which swirls and spreads,
Forever changing 
His lemony hue
To one deeper
And closer to sunset than noon?
Does the red gloat,
Overtaking his fellow,
Creeping across Cadmium Yellow's
Tube-pure hue,
Streaming an orange wake?
Do Red and Blue
Fuss and feud
Over "more or less of me or you"
In search of a perfect Purple?
Compliments go nicely
From a healthy distance,
But too close, too close,
And a shit-storm Brown
Spirals from the center
Of Blue-meets-Orange. 
Black comes along
Bringing everybody down,
Sky Blue to Slate,
Berry to Burgundy,
And not a drop affects him. 
Some are so touchy
Like sensitive White,
Deeply affected by any and all,
Yet his influence small
Changes little in them. 
Frustrated he pours himself
Into friend after friend,
Yet they stay the same. 
Do primaries marry,
Seeking a partner
To parent a spectrum
Of secondary sons and daughters?
"He's more of a Red-Orange...
A lot like his father."
How we mix and meld,
Changing ourselves 
And each other. 
What wonders we make,
A Pantone of people,
A vibrant mess,
Swirled and splattered
Together, together. 

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Psalm 23 and Me

Psalm 23 and Me
A Meditation

The Lord is my shepherd. I shall not want. 

You take care of me. I will be content. 

You make me lie down in green pastures; you lead me beside quiet waters. 

My belly is full. Rest.  Food. Beauty and bounty. 

You restore my soul. 

Right here, right now. 

You guide me along right paths for your name's sake. 

I am not lost. 

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for you are with me.  

I am not alone. 

Your rod and your staff comfort me. 

Your guidance and correction give me peace. 

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. 

I can sit, relax, and eat even in the face of conflict. 

You anoint my head with oil. 

Your blessing, protection, and empowerment flow over me. 

My cup overflows. 

I have more than enough. 

Surely your goodness and mercy will follow me all the days of my life. 

No matter how far I run, you are behind me, ready to bring me back home. 

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. 

With you. Home. Forever. 

Friday, February 19, 2016

Birdsong

Birdsong
By: Joy Ortiz

My strength and my song,
I lift my voice
In the early morning grey.
What gifts you give!
Early morning silence,
Birdsong,
The hope of spring. 
Oh, the generous hand of God!
Blessings fall down.
We crowd to receive
Like winter-hungry,
Tired-winged birds. 
You feed and rest us.
We wait for spring. 
Sustain us, Lord. 
Our praises rise with the sun.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Pray for your Enemies

Pray for your Enemies
 
By: Joy Ortiz
 
            Recently I was invited to lead a small group event at my church.  I was a bit surprised when Pamela asked me to lead one of these prayer sessions, because I don’t consider myself to be much of a teacher.  I’m lucky if I know what day it is or where I left my shoes.  I have more questions than answers when it comes to the important things in life.  
        As I was preparing to talk, I asked God what in the world I should say.  What do I know about prayer?  These days, most of my prayers go something like, “God, my neck still hurts,” “God, please let that be chocolate on my child’s face and not poop,” or “God, thank you for these two beautiful girls, and please let bedtime come soon.”
            These aren’t bad prayers, but I wasn’t feeling particularly inspired to teach anyone about how to pray them.  I think everyone prays these kinds of prayers throughout the day: spontaneous words that spring to our lips when we feel a sensation: joy, pain, fear, sorrow, etc.  “God,” I prayed, “Please give me something worthwhile to teach your people. Something you want them to hear.” Immediately this story sprang to mind, so here is the lesson I prepared.
            After supper one evening I received a text message from one of my girlfriends.  “Hey, are you available to talk in person for like, 20 minutes?”  “Sure!” I replied, and I pulled the covers off of my comfy porch chairs, parked myself, and waited for my friend to arrive.  It wasn’t long before her car pulled up.  I greeted her with a hug, and we sat down to one of the best things about friendship: a safe place to talk about life.
            After we caught up on how-was-your-day kind of chit-chat, we got to the heart of her visit.  It turns out that a married man was sending my friend uncomfortably friendly text messages.  She was unsure about how to take it; on the surface the messages were fairly innocent.  However, her gut feeling screamed, “This isn’t right!”  She wasn’t sure what to do about it.  Thankfully, I knew the man well enough to tell her, “You are absolutely right.  These are not innocent messages, and you should steer clear.”  She breathed a huge sigh of relief and cried, “I knew it!  I knew it!  Now I’m gonna go home and tell my husband.”  We talked a little bit more, and then she went home.
            The encounter left me more than a little bit disturbed.  It sickened me to hear that my dear friend was prey to someone’s selfish and inappropriate attentions.  I found myself welling up with anger and disgust.  My mind played over every detail of the many hurtful, degrading, selfish acts that man had committed.  I hated that the list was growing longer.  That man was definitely the enemy, on so many levels.  How many of my friends would suffer because of him?
            The word “enemy,” as though I had typed it into a search engine, pulled a Bible verse to the front of my mind.
            “Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you.” (Matthew 5:44)  
            I knew God’s voice well enough to realize that He was speaking to me, lovingly correcting my attitude.  “No, Joy.  Not hate. Love.  Always love.  And pray for him.”  I was a bit ashamed that my heart was still so quick to hate instead of love.  I mean, I’ve been a Christian my whole life.  You would think I would look a little bit more like Christ by now. Grudgingly at first, then more sincerely, I began to pray for my enemy.
            It’s funny how something as simple as saying a prayer can change a person.  By praying for that man, I wasn’t changing him.  In that moment I was changing myself.  My tension and anger began to melt away as I brought my enemy before the Lord and asked God to help him.  I began to see him as a person again, a person like me: capable of both good and evil.  Instead of a selfish scum-ball, I saw him as a broken and lost human, and I began to wish for his redemption instead of his eradication.  Hope replaced hate in my heart, and I took the first small step toward loving my enemy.
            Today I invite you to practice praying for your enemies.  I read an article in Relevant Magazine recently that talked about loving our enemies, and I’d like to share part of it with you.  Addressing prayer for enemies, Thomas Christianson wrote,       “I’m not talking about ‘please give that person what they have coming to them’ prayers. But I also don’t mean that you need to spend an hour each night asking God to pour blessings upon them. There’s a way to pray both for justice and for the hearts of those committing injustices.

If you have hate in your heart for somebody, maybe it starts with ‘God, I hate that person, and I don’t want to.’

As C.S. Lewis has said, ‘[Prayer] doesn’t change God—it changes me.’
Praying for your enemies opens you up to the work of the Holy Spirit in your heart.

Martin Luther King Jr. in Strength to Loveposits that forgiveness is the decisive factor in how much you can love your enemy. I fully agree.

When Jesus looks at His executioners from the cross and offers forgiveness, can there be any doubt of His love for them?

When relatives of the victims in the South Carolina church shooting offered forgiveness to the young man who murdered their loved ones, could anyone doubt that they were seeking to take Jesus’ words and example seriously?

Loving your enemy does not mean you have to add them to your Christmas list, or make them your best friend. It doesn’t mean you excuse their actions. It means you forgive them, with the knowledge that God is both merciful and just.

Jesus faced grave injustice with sacrifice. Through prayer and forgiveness in our hearts, let us go forth to conquer injustice in our time by the courage not to demand retribution, but rather to repay injury with blessing and hate with love.”  (http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/worldview/what-it-actually-means-love-your-enemies)  That was from the Relevant Magazine article “What It Actually Means to Love Your Enemies.”
            When Christ taught us to love our enemies and pray for our persecutors, he wasn’t trying to frustrate us.  He wasn’t trying to deny us our just measure of anger.  He wasn’t trying to tell us to stuff our real feelings down deep inside and cover them with a false, smiling face and nice words.  He was inviting us to the freedom and healing that can only be experienced in truly forgiving someone and releasing their sins to God’s justice.  Jesus was giving us a gift: peace and joy that takes the place of anger and hate.  When we bring our enemies to God in prayer, we cast down the burden of their sins against us at God’s feet.  We say, “This person did this to me, and I hate him for it, but I know you don’t want me to hang onto that hate.  So I am giving it to you.  Please release me from this burden, and please help me to love my enemy.”  When we leave that burden in God’s care, we don’t have to carry that negative weight around anymore.  All responsibility for justice and vengeance transfers to God.
            In Romans 12:9-21 the Apostle Paul teaches us:
“Love from the center of who you are; don’t fake it. Run for dear life from evil; hold on for dear life to good. Be good friends who love deeply; practice playing second fiddle.
Don’t burn out; keep yourselves fueled and aflame. Be alert servants of the Master, cheerfully expectant. Don’t quit in hard times; pray all the harder. Help needy Christians; be inventive in hospitality.
Bless your enemies; no cursing under your breath. Laugh with your happy friends when they’re happy; share tears when they’re down. Get along with each other; don’t be stuck-up. Make friends with nobodies; don’t be the great somebody.
Don’t hit back; discover beauty in everyone. If you’ve got it in you, get along with everybody. Don’t insist on getting even; that’s not for you to do. “I’ll do the judging,” says God. “I’ll take care of it.”
Our Scriptures tell us that if you see your enemy hungry, go buy that person lunch, or if he’s thirsty, get him a drink. Your generosity will surprise him with goodness. Don’t let evil get the best of you; get the best of evil by doing good.”
Romans 12:9-21 (MSG)
            As we prepare our hearts for prayer, I would like us to sing At the Foot of the Cross.  As we lay every burden down at the foot of the cross, may we also pray that Christ will teach us to be more like him, extending mercy, love, and hope for a new life to every human being, beginning with our enemies. 

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

You Are, God.

You Are, God. 
By: Joy Ortiz

First, highest, alone
Atop my list,
The one that matters,
The voice that counts,
The final word
You are. 
Mine, my rock, my solace,
My guiding light,
My reason, my hope, 
My promise. 
I will lay it all down
For you:
Anything you ask.
I hold it all loosely,
Not always easily,
But with my whole heart. 
Yours, yours, yours. 
I am yours. 
All that I have,
All that I want,
All that I think,
All that I dream:
Yours. 
Speak to me. 
I long for your voice. 
Say the hard things. 
I will listen. 
Light my way. 
I will follow that light,
Your light,
Wherever it leads me. 
I've tasted your love
Deep, sweet, and true,
And I want more,
More,
More of you. 
I will seek you. 
I will find you. 
I will walk by your side
Now and forever.