Sunday, November 23, 2014

Water and God

Water and God

When I am thirsty
In my rich, rich life
You are an open tap
Spilling out
A generous stream
To fill my clean glass. 
Every time
I reach out my hand,
You are there,
Sweet and pure,
In endless measure. 
At the end of my day,
I sink by inches
Into a steaming bathtub
Where you soothe my muscles
And relax my mind. 
You surround me. 

Sometimes. 

When I live
In a poor, dry land,
I walk far
With weary feet
To find you
And bring home
A small measure of your goodness,
All that I can carry
In this yellow container
Atop my head.
Enough for today,
You sustain me
Until
Generosity builds a well
In my dirt-street village,
And I feel you pour over
My head and hands,
Washing me
In a new flood. 

Sometimes. 

When I hike through
Deep, wild woods
Far from houses
And civilized folks,
I find you
In a pond or stream. 
You bubble in my tea kettle
Over a camp fire
In the evening 
As I sit and ponder
The trail I blazed today. 
Every impurity
Boils away,
And you pour into my cup,
Filling it,
Releasing all of the sweet, spicy goodness
Of hot chai tea. 
I drink you down
In warm, rich sips
As I savor my journey
And rest from the day's travel. 

Sometimes. 

In rain clouds and puddles,
In mountain springs and creeks,
In faucets and sewers,
In man-made lakes,
In ice caps and ice cubes,
In tide pools and plastic bottles,
You are everywhere. 
Easy or hard to find,
You are there. 
You sustain us. 
You cleanse us. 
You comfort us. 
You grow us. 
You give life to the world. 
Without you,
We are withered,
Thirsty,
Dirty,
And
Dry. 
We seek you. 
We find you. 
We live. 
We are thankful. 

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Ungrateful Child

Ungrateful Child
By: Joy Ortiz

I am a child
Filled with every kind of
Selfishness,
Pining after
What I think I deserve. 
I'm throwing tantrums for 
All the presents
I demanded
And didn't receive;
Kicking and screaming; and 
Refusing to eat
The healthy plateful before me
Because I wanted
Pizza instead of casserole. 
When I got slapped
Accidentally
On the playground,
I held a grudge
And wouldn't play with
That black-haired kid
Anymore
Even though
He was my best friend
Five minutes ago. 
How much
Kid stuff
Is the kid's fault?
How much
Is just growing pains?
Must I
Wail and flail
To grow?
How long
Will I cry 
Over gifts ungiven
While ignoring
The heaps of toys
Covering my own
Bedroom floor?
How many times
Will I glare
And stamp my feet,
Folding my arms across my chest,
Disdaining
My Father?
Can I grow up faster?
I am tired of being 
An ungrateful child. 

Monday, October 27, 2014

I Did. I Do.

I Did. I Do. 
By: Joy Ortiz

I trusted you. 
I trust you. 
I followed you. 
I follow you. 
I loved you
More than anything. 
I love you
More than anything. 
You led me. 
You lead me. 
It wasn't easy. 
It's not easy. 
You were the best thing 
I could find. 
Now I'm surrounded
By shiny, new options. 
Tell me
You are still
The best thing. 
Tell me again
That you will never let me go. 
Comfort
My aching heart. 
Quiet
My fearful mind. 
Satisfy
My deepest longing. 
You were my path. 
You are my path. 
You were my life. 
You are my life. 
I loved you. 
I love you. 

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Watch and Pray

Watch and Pray
By: Joy Ortiz

She was watching tv
Zoning out
Not noticing
As she absently jabbed
A wooden drum stick
Into her stuffed animal's
Bottom. 
We saw her. 
"Hey!  What are you doing?"
"Nothing."
"Well, don't put that there. 
It's weird."
My daughter. 
She is five. 
It could be nothing. 
God, I hope
It's nothing. 
I am gripped by icy chills. 
My thoughts race,
Scanning, analyzing
Everyone who fills her life. 
Could it be?
Has someone
Touched her?
Oh my God. 
She never stopped
Watching tv. 
She laid the toy aside. 
Calm. 
Normal. 
This fear,
Is it 
Paranoia?
Or a mother's intuition?
Was it a sign,
Or just
An absent-minded, 
Innocent
Coincidence?
I am her mother. 
What can I do?
Watch and pray. 

Thursday, October 23, 2014

You Float Me

You Float Me
By: Joy Ortiz

You float me
On my back
In endless waters,
And I lie,
Ears and eyes submerged,
Facing heaven. 
I spread my arms wide,
Inhaling and exhaling
You. 
My feet dangle
From loose legs,
Relaxed and weightless
Beneath the surface.
You are there,
My center,
My breath,
My life. 
When my arms are tired
Of endless swimming
And my eyes,
Blinded by brine,
Cannot see the shore, 
You fill my lungs.
I cease my struggle. 
I lie down. 
Without you,
I'm drowning,
Pulled under by it all. 
I could panic. 
I could swim for my life
North, west, east, or South,
Guided by the brightest star. 
I could kick and scream. 
I could fight the waves. 
You quiet me. 
In stillness I find you
Within me. 
I am a child,
Weak and small,
With no strength
To traverse this ocean,
Yet I am saved.
You keep me from sinking
As the tides travel
To an unseen land.
Whither do I go,
And how long
Until I arrive?
Yet I must rest
Or die of exertion,
Swallowed by the sea. 
In this moment
You float me. 

Thursday, October 2, 2014

The Man in the Front-Row Seat

The Man in the Front-Row Seat
By: Joy Ortiz

Writer who penned my days,
Maker of the book,
All-seer, All-knower,
The plot thickens. 
Here I crouch,
Mid-scene,
Waiting for my next line. 
You sit back
In your front row seat
With folded arms
And a half-smile. 
You've come to watch me
Perform on this stage
My fan fiction,
My little play,
My take on the masterpiece. 
An amateur,
A child,
A girl,
A woman
I am
Shifting through these scenes,
Guided by a story
Older than dust. 
As my clumsy play unfolds,
You are ever before my eyes. 
Am I doing justice to the book?
Will its author be pleased?
Ah, but a father
Knows no greater joy
Than to watch his growing child
Clump around the stage
In oversized shoes. 
When the curtain falls,
His applause is loudest of all. 

Back in an Hour

Back in an Hour

I saw you
See through me. 
With a cool brush of a kiss,
You swept past,
On your way
Somewhere.  
What held you captive,
What stifled your fire,
What emptied your eyes?
Where was
Your heart?
And how long
Had it been missing
Before I even noticed?
I have seen your eyes 
Warm and bright
But not for me
Today. 
Your lips said,
"I love you."
Maybe you do
When you can, 
But
Not now. 
Not this moment. 
I will find you. 
I will capture your heart.  
I will press against you
Until I melt you
With my fire. 
I will love you
Until your eyes reflect it,
Until your lips can't help
Spilling your soul
To me,
Until you fall into my arms,
Broken and whole. 
I will be your world,
Your refuge,
Your strength,
Your home. 
I am awake. 
I am alive. 
I am yours.